我好累哦...我真的好累...有一股想一睡就不起的冲动。 如果都不醒来，就不会有那么多要烦恼的东西。就没有哪些问题。就不会遇到那么多人。也就不会有烦恼。
~LoN3Ly M3~
June 29, 2008
June 26, 2008
END OF CT
Okay, i guess many people are finally relieved from this stress. Me too. I am quite happy that everything ended. It is just like a heavenly feeling.
Though it's after CT, today wasn't that much of a good day to me.
Maybe mood swing. Maybe something else. I'm not very sure though i think i am. Very contradicting right? Yes, coz this is what makes me up. I am a super confused guy who cant get his feelings to be right.
I dont know what i should feel. I dun know what happen. I dun know how i should react to stuffs. Sometimes, i so wished i was a stone in the pond that no one cares and just sink to the bottom. Why do i always want to run away from everything? I dont know. But it just feel so good sometimes not to tink of anything.
Anyway, i should be happy. I think i should be. But things just dun turn out to be this way. It always hurt me now.
~LoN3Ly M3~
Though it's after CT, today wasn't that much of a good day to me.
Maybe mood swing. Maybe something else. I'm not very sure though i think i am. Very contradicting right? Yes, coz this is what makes me up. I am a super confused guy who cant get his feelings to be right.
I dont know what i should feel. I dun know what happen. I dun know how i should react to stuffs. Sometimes, i so wished i was a stone in the pond that no one cares and just sink to the bottom. Why do i always want to run away from everything? I dont know. But it just feel so good sometimes not to tink of anything.
Anyway, i should be happy. I think i should be. But things just dun turn out to be this way. It always hurt me now.
~LoN3Ly M3~
June 25, 2008
IMU
SIGH. At this time, i should be mugging bio. But i just cant settle my heart down. Hahas. NVM, tmr is the last day liao. I shant disturb others mugging. Jia you all my fren =D
~JaCkY MU~
~JaCkY MU~
June 22, 2008
Holiday is ending
June holiday is effectively ending in another about 2 hours and i am really sad that the holiday is ending. It just happened to quickly and ended too quickly. I really hope that it's holiday everyday (maybe that's what most of us hoped for) but this is not gonna happen.
Common test is starting in almost all JC and of course, NJ is also having CT starting tmr. Tmr will be the most hectic day for me, having GP and econs tgt. Hai, not enough preparation yet but nvm, i can do all my best. =D
Everyone, jia you to you. All the best. I shld be back to mug liao =D
BYE!!!
~StReSseD M3~
Common test is starting in almost all JC and of course, NJ is also having CT starting tmr. Tmr will be the most hectic day for me, having GP and econs tgt. Hai, not enough preparation yet but nvm, i can do all my best. =D
Everyone, jia you to you. All the best. I shld be back to mug liao =D
BYE!!!
~StReSseD M3~
June 18, 2008
Firefox Download Day
From now on, it will be a day for firefox download day. They are trying to break Guinness World Record for having the most download in one day. Help =D
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June 17, 2008
So many things happened
I am actually quite vexed over the many things that happened. I want to control my feelings and emotions but i guess i am born like that. I JUST CANT!!!
1. Badminton
It's like i just don't feel like i belong to the team now. Everyone is like so experienced and good but i just make the grade. And sometimes when i can't perform as well, it's not like i don't want to but i can't. Just like the fix drill the other day. Me and alex were not really able to get it right. It's not like we do not want to do it well k? Stupid. I mean like, Catholic High has got no badminton team. If i was trained and performed like that, i will be so ashamed. And i tried giving my best. Even the last training, my leg was super painful until now still pain. I cannot run now. I cannot jump. I cannot exercise now. But why did i still try so hard for training the other day? I dont know. Badminton is like my life. I enjoy playing it. I really love it. It's not like i dont want to train. It's just i am still not there. Time is needed. I am not like you. You learned before and was in the team. I AM NOT!!! Dont always expect others to be like you. Yes, i agree that i am lousy. But do you think you are so great? I tried my best.
I really feel like quitting after the last training. I am not really happy in the team now. I dont want to think about it also. I just want to learn to play badminton and play like someone who can play. I want to continue, but can I?
2. Relationship
I have been really vexed about this. I dont know if you are reading this now or not but i still decided to post this. I am so vexed. I want to like run away from everything now and just start anew. Maybe from scratch. Maybe if God give me this chance to feel numb about everything, I would gladly accept it. I am in pain now. Why is it always like this. I dont know why and how. I just want to be with myself now. I just cannot stop thinking about this. Maybe i should just quit being myself. I hate myself now. I really hate myself now. It's not your problem. It's just me. I just dont understand myself at times too. Dont ask me why and how? I dont want to think about it now!!!But i still want you to be there for me.
3. Study
I so feel like dropping out of school. I know that most of the people out there have got this problem too. It's not just me. But i feel so lousy now. I just dont feel good about studying. Maybe i was wrong. Maybe someone can guide me along?
The 3 main things that really bothers me. I want to run away from everything. Maybe it's time for me to stay away from all electronic stuffs and get detached from the world until the term starts again. It's time to chill and think carefully...
~VEXeD M3~
1. Badminton
It's like i just don't feel like i belong to the team now. Everyone is like so experienced and good but i just make the grade. And sometimes when i can't perform as well, it's not like i don't want to but i can't. Just like the fix drill the other day. Me and alex were not really able to get it right. It's not like we do not want to do it well k? Stupid. I mean like, Catholic High has got no badminton team. If i was trained and performed like that, i will be so ashamed. And i tried giving my best. Even the last training, my leg was super painful until now still pain. I cannot run now. I cannot jump. I cannot exercise now. But why did i still try so hard for training the other day? I dont know. Badminton is like my life. I enjoy playing it. I really love it. It's not like i dont want to train. It's just i am still not there. Time is needed. I am not like you. You learned before and was in the team. I AM NOT!!! Dont always expect others to be like you. Yes, i agree that i am lousy. But do you think you are so great? I tried my best.
I really feel like quitting after the last training. I am not really happy in the team now. I dont want to think about it also. I just want to learn to play badminton and play like someone who can play. I want to continue, but can I?
2. Relationship
I have been really vexed about this. I dont know if you are reading this now or not but i still decided to post this. I am so vexed. I want to like run away from everything now and just start anew. Maybe from scratch. Maybe if God give me this chance to feel numb about everything, I would gladly accept it. I am in pain now. Why is it always like this. I dont know why and how. I just want to be with myself now. I just cannot stop thinking about this. Maybe i should just quit being myself. I hate myself now. I really hate myself now. It's not your problem. It's just me. I just dont understand myself at times too. Dont ask me why and how? I dont want to think about it now!!!But i still want you to be there for me.
3. Study
I so feel like dropping out of school. I know that most of the people out there have got this problem too. It's not just me. But i feel so lousy now. I just dont feel good about studying. Maybe i was wrong. Maybe someone can guide me along?
The 3 main things that really bothers me. I want to run away from everything. Maybe it's time for me to stay away from all electronic stuffs and get detached from the world until the term starts again. It's time to chill and think carefully...
~VEXeD M3~
June 6, 2008
Back In Singapore
Hahas. Finally back to civilisation. Lol. I went for YLTC (Youth Leader Training Camp) in Kluang, Malaysia. The campsite is quite wuuluu so we all say there no civilisation. Hahas.
5 days YLTC camp in Kluang,malaysia is definitely memorable because of the activities and the people there, especially SEMANGAT!!! They are all so friendly and working really well even though we only know one another for like 5 days. It was really a great camp. Though there are some unhappy things about the camp too. But overall, the camp was superb =D
Day 1, 02/06/08
Woke up at 5 am just to pack my bag coz the previous day was having class outing and went home super late. Anyway, went to school to report by 7am and then did a stupid bag check. Luckily not like elects camp. I still remember how we did the stupid bag check during elects camp. "30 seconds to take your shirts out" was like the thing we did back in elects camp and like all our clothes are at the bottom. Hahas. The bag check for this camp gives up ample time to take out and slowly pack everything inside. Then took bus to Malaysia liao lor =D Bus ride was quite boring. Coz molina whom we always laughed at sat far away from us. Then ziyi got knocked out like real quick. So we slept tgt. Hahas. Sounds wrong. Anyway, the trip is boring and stuffs lar. We reached at about the afternoon. Went to lunch and it started raining. So we got splitted up to learn different things. 1 group went for navigation, 1 group went to knots course and 1 group went to pitch tent =D
I went to learn the knots for river-crossing. It is super easy and like i took less than 5 mins to learn the knots while other are struggling. Hahas. Then we put out things in the tent and stuffs and then went for nightwalk at night. I went with yue xi. It was super hilarious lar. They told us there is this path to follow whereby there is no path at all. Yue Xi and i were like "are we on the right path?", "there is not path wat?", "scared anot?" The walk is not scary but rather stupid. Haha. It ended so quickly that before we want to be afraid, it was over. Lol.
Some stupid things during the nightwalk. People shouting "tree branches" whereby there is only a branch. Then got people shout "bend down" then the message got pass down so quickly that everyone bent down and they are not even at the area that they need to bend down. And one more, people shout "puddle" then the next pair just step right into it. Haha.
Then went back to wash up =D a very slack day =D
Day 2, 03/06/08
Rise and shine of course. Some ppl in my tent just like to wake ppl up. He woke up at 5.40 and was making quite some noise. Couldnt really sleep after that. Hahas. Then kinda woke up liao. Then did area cleaning. Guys' toilet is like super disgusting. But after going over to the girl's toilet to help clear the choked drain, i found out that guys are so much cleaner. LOL!!!
Anyway, first activity is rafting. Jo-lin is in my group then the both of us or rather the whole half of semangat was helping to build the raft. TEAMWORK ROCKS!!! Our raft is like good lar =D
Then had navigation in the afternoon but the rain was so heavy that the instructors dun allow us to do the activity. Then we went to the shelter and slacked. Stupid lar. Played some lame games and i kena forfeit. Did 7 wonders with maxine and mervyn. So unlucky lor. Then molina and dian feng didnt get to do forfeit. Cheater !!!
Then had some leadership talk in the night and most of us almost fell asleep. Hahas. But i didnt sleep k =D Was straining my eye to keep them open =D
Day 3, 04/06/08
Rise and shine again. Area cleaning as usual. It was the girls toilet and due to the rain. The toilet is in super bad condition. It is like SHIT. And i mean it. Coz all the flying ant died in the toilet. The guy's toilet sink is even worse. Half of the sink is filled with dead flying ants.
Then we chiong all the activities today. Did canoeing in the morning and then river-crossing and then navigation. Quite busy day. Really nothing much to update about. Lol. Coz it is hard to describe especially if u are not there. Ask me next time when you see me lar. Then maybe i can give a better picture of it =D
Day 4, 05/06/08
Mountain climbing today. Was very easy i think. Then went for city trail. Went around the city and the city is actually quite nice. As compared to what i had in mind lar. Hahas. Very bad image. Went to a hotel and the toilet is like super clean. Many of my group ppl went in and spent like 5 - 10mins inside. Hahas.
Then went around buying things and stuffs. Then night rained again and no activity. Then after tt, didnt sleep. Chatted with ppl the whole night =D
Day 5, 06/06/08
Stupid PT thing and stuffs. Ran and rolled in mud and stuffs. MY TEAM NJ SHIRT. GOD DAMN THEM. Okay, i shall chill. Not gonna be tt vulgar here. Hahas.
Actually, that's about all bah. I bet u all will like read the 1st 2 sentences of each day nia. Hahas. Really too boring for u all if u not there.
~HaPpY M3~
5 days YLTC camp in Kluang,malaysia is definitely memorable because of the activities and the people there, especially SEMANGAT!!! They are all so friendly and working really well even though we only know one another for like 5 days. It was really a great camp. Though there are some unhappy things about the camp too. But overall, the camp was superb =D
Day 1, 02/06/08
Woke up at 5 am just to pack my bag coz the previous day was having class outing and went home super late. Anyway, went to school to report by 7am and then did a stupid bag check. Luckily not like elects camp. I still remember how we did the stupid bag check during elects camp. "30 seconds to take your shirts out" was like the thing we did back in elects camp and like all our clothes are at the bottom. Hahas. The bag check for this camp gives up ample time to take out and slowly pack everything inside. Then took bus to Malaysia liao lor =D Bus ride was quite boring. Coz molina whom we always laughed at sat far away from us. Then ziyi got knocked out like real quick. So we slept tgt. Hahas. Sounds wrong. Anyway, the trip is boring and stuffs lar. We reached at about the afternoon. Went to lunch and it started raining. So we got splitted up to learn different things. 1 group went for navigation, 1 group went to knots course and 1 group went to pitch tent =D
I went to learn the knots for river-crossing. It is super easy and like i took less than 5 mins to learn the knots while other are struggling. Hahas. Then we put out things in the tent and stuffs and then went for nightwalk at night. I went with yue xi. It was super hilarious lar. They told us there is this path to follow whereby there is no path at all. Yue Xi and i were like "are we on the right path?", "there is not path wat?", "scared anot?" The walk is not scary but rather stupid. Haha. It ended so quickly that before we want to be afraid, it was over. Lol.
Some stupid things during the nightwalk. People shouting "tree branches" whereby there is only a branch. Then got people shout "bend down" then the message got pass down so quickly that everyone bent down and they are not even at the area that they need to bend down. And one more, people shout "puddle" then the next pair just step right into it. Haha.
Then went back to wash up =D a very slack day =D
Day 2, 03/06/08
Rise and shine of course. Some ppl in my tent just like to wake ppl up. He woke up at 5.40 and was making quite some noise. Couldnt really sleep after that. Hahas. Then kinda woke up liao. Then did area cleaning. Guys' toilet is like super disgusting. But after going over to the girl's toilet to help clear the choked drain, i found out that guys are so much cleaner. LOL!!!
Anyway, first activity is rafting. Jo-lin is in my group then the both of us or rather the whole half of semangat was helping to build the raft. TEAMWORK ROCKS!!! Our raft is like good lar =D
Then had navigation in the afternoon but the rain was so heavy that the instructors dun allow us to do the activity. Then we went to the shelter and slacked. Stupid lar. Played some lame games and i kena forfeit. Did 7 wonders with maxine and mervyn. So unlucky lor. Then molina and dian feng didnt get to do forfeit. Cheater !!!
Then had some leadership talk in the night and most of us almost fell asleep. Hahas. But i didnt sleep k =D Was straining my eye to keep them open =D
Day 3, 04/06/08
Rise and shine again. Area cleaning as usual. It was the girls toilet and due to the rain. The toilet is in super bad condition. It is like SHIT. And i mean it. Coz all the flying ant died in the toilet. The guy's toilet sink is even worse. Half of the sink is filled with dead flying ants.
Then we chiong all the activities today. Did canoeing in the morning and then river-crossing and then navigation. Quite busy day. Really nothing much to update about. Lol. Coz it is hard to describe especially if u are not there. Ask me next time when you see me lar. Then maybe i can give a better picture of it =D
Day 4, 05/06/08
Mountain climbing today. Was very easy i think. Then went for city trail. Went around the city and the city is actually quite nice. As compared to what i had in mind lar. Hahas. Very bad image. Went to a hotel and the toilet is like super clean. Many of my group ppl went in and spent like 5 - 10mins inside. Hahas.
Then went around buying things and stuffs. Then night rained again and no activity. Then after tt, didnt sleep. Chatted with ppl the whole night =D
Day 5, 06/06/08
Stupid PT thing and stuffs. Ran and rolled in mud and stuffs. MY TEAM NJ SHIRT. GOD DAMN THEM. Okay, i shall chill. Not gonna be tt vulgar here. Hahas.
Actually, that's about all bah. I bet u all will like read the 1st 2 sentences of each day nia. Hahas. Really too boring for u all if u not there.
~HaPpY M3~
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