My 400th Post

Haha. My 400th post. Quite suprising. Blog for so long liao. Anyway, my mum is like back in taiwan liao and i am the only one at home. Till 13 Jun. Anyway, going to post some wise things. Haha





~LoN3Ly M3~

Tired

Okay, been very busy and has got training. Today training was quite tough i guess. Maybe not. But then just plain tired and slept right after dinner. Until just now.

Nothing much to update. Since tmr has got chem SPA and i am not really studying yet, so i decided to post something here. Hehex.

~HaPpY M3~

First Day of Holiday

Haha. Today is officially the first day of school holiday. And guess what, i am already starting with make-up lectures and other make-up lessons. And what's worse, i had a camp briefing and also cleaning up of council room and student lounge. It is really in a mess. Haha.

Anyway, my first two weeks of the holiday will be gone and i dun tink i am like very free in the 3rd and 4th week. Hahas.

~LoN3Ly M3~

Investiture and Class Dinner

Okay, I guess I should be happy now. I guess i am. Not really sure. Maybe i don't know my feelings now too. Haha.

Anyway, i finally got the sleep i wanted. But thanks to going to college, my biological clock wont allow me to sleep more than 6 hours normally. So i managed to sleep for like 8 hours ytd night. Quite happy already.

Anyway, yesterday is my investiture. I am finally invested. Haha. Didnt make it to EXCO and stuffs. Currently the Vice-Head of CIA (Committee of Internal Affair).

Anyway, will be posting pictures soon.

Class Dinner. Haha. Yes, not my class dinner. I mean, i didnt eat anything. I don't know why, i just don't feel like eating and i am like really dead now. Haha. Quite happy that she came back. =)

Anyway, gtg do pw liao. Bye

~M3~

Stressed and Tired

I am really very tired. Many things happened in school and I just cant stop thinking about them. Every time i close my eye, something happened.

I didnt sleep for about close to 30 hours and still counting. I will not be sleep till after investiture and after lesson and after my class dinner and after i get home. Which i think will be another 16 hours bah. I am really tired. I want to sleep. But i just cant fall asleep.

~DrAiNeD M3~

Yet Another 1st Time

Okay. I really didnt know why i did this. I just did.

I wished i could post this. But i dun noe how to start.

Anyway, it was like my first time going out at night just because i got a sms. But i really want to go out.

~HaPpY M3~

For the 1st time

My problems are finally pushing me to the limit. For the first time in my life. I am finally breaking down. Maybe you know me as the cheerful and funny and lame yu hung but time have change. I am no longer that me.

I feel so hollow. So like a walking zombie. So like a empty shell.

Problems are building up. I don't know how to handle now. I just feel like crying. I just feel like breaking down. I just feel like not caring for anything anymore.

For 17 years, I did not cry for any problems that i have encountered, coz i noe that everything will work out eventually. But now, i am crying in front of my computer, while typing this. I can no longer see the keys i am pressing now. I can no longer see clearly the screen. I can no longer see my life as a wonderful one.

Breaking down. Maybe that sounds stupid to you. But what do you know. I'm breaking down. I want to run away from all these problems. But they just wont leave me. What can i do? It is not just my problems that is troubling me. I have so much more problem. Other people's problem. I don't know what deep shit i got into this time. Maybe sleeping will help me feel so much better. But the problems are haunting me, prohibiting me from sleeping.

Who to help me? Who to pity me? Who to care for me? Who to save me?

Maybe it will all come down to myself again. All i have with me is me, me, me and more problems.

It hurts so much. It seriously does hurt. I am trying to be strong, but my heart seem to be bleeding... and it's really badly....and it just got worse. No one to heal my soul, no one to stitch my heart, no one to lessen my pain, no one for me to lean on.

Maybe i am born loner. Maybe i am not even meant to be here. Maybe my existence is absurd. Maybe i am... i am... i am......

There is just so much possibility to that. I don't really want to think about it anymore. My head is splitting. And i mean it. It is really splitting. I just don't want to think about it now. Just don't want to face it...

~SuP3R UnHaPpY M3~

SOLARIS, WE BITE REAL HARD =)

Today is the track and field meet and SOLARIS is proud to say WE HAVE WIN THE WAR THIS TIME =)

Anyway, i ran for the 4X100m race and guess what? I hurt my thigh. Haha. And i am so suffering from pain now. Haha. Walking is not really a problem i guess. But then i kinda cant climb stairs. I will be strolling around the school too. Hai, tmr still got badminton match and i cant play. Lol. NVM, my turn will come soon. I hope.

Anyway, solaris is really doing good today and will be doing just as well. =)

I am confident of the house. SOLARIS, WE ROCK ON =)

~HaPpY M3~

Disappointment

Haha. Disappointment one after another. Sad to say this but yeah, it's happening again. It is like everytime i get really involved in something, something just slipped away. Same as what happened to me 2 years ago. This feeling sucks. Though i have somewhat admitted and accept my fate, i am just not happy. I don't get all these shit and stuffs that goes on in my life. I mean like, it is just so unexpected and unbelievable.

Never mind about all those stuffs already. Maybe sometimes it will be good for me. I hope that it is good. Nights people.

~UnHaPpY M3~

Labour Day

Hello. Do u all noe what labour day means? It is not a holiday, but a day for u to work extra hard. Die..

Anyway, ytd was studying with _______ in the morning and then went to shaun's house for PW. What's the funniest thing? Is that i am not from his PW group. haha. Coz my group doing PW too then ben met tze tze and she told us they doing PW too. So we went to Shaun's house coz AMK hub is like fully packed and the library is not opened.

So we worked extra hard until i dun even have the time for lunch. Haha. Then i didnt have dinner coz there were nothing to eat at home and it was pretty late when i got home. Then today morning had to rush to school like super early so i didnt have my breakfast too. Cool right? Haha. But i brought a packet of prawn crackers and ate it during my double GP period =)

Anyway, schedule is really hectic and stuffs. When can i not be busy and have more time for her? Hai. Sian. I am like so dead now. I feel so like walking zombie=)

~HaPpY M3~