December 25, 2008

Feel the LOVE tonight



Okay, today, i just spent like almost the whole day out with my mum. And today, it made me realised how little time i had spent with my mum. How little i had talked to her. How far we had been away from one another. And stuffs like that. I dun know why all these are happening.

I sort of know that long ago but decide not to acknowledge that fact of not spending enough time. But today, i felt so guilty. I dont know how i should be feeling but then, when my mum talked to me and stuffs, i felt like i owe her a lot. More than i could repay her. I dun know whether i should be feeling this. But yes, i feel guilty. I do have my worries too. I wanna be like a normal person trying to be nice to their family and stuffs like that. Why cant i just?

And why cant you be more understanding and stop being so sarcastic? I hate the way you talk to me now. I dont like it. I just dont like it. Why is it like this? I wished i had told you. I wished i had clarified everything with you. I wished i can talk to you more. But nvm. You're not going to see this anw. So it's okay. Just be urself. Maybe one day u will realise.

~LoVeY DoVeY M3~

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