I REALLY NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE BADLY

I dun know. many thoughts have been coming up in my head... i dun know what to say or what to tink about. is what i'm thinking the reality??? is what i guessed the truth? i really want to know the answer badly. why? why? why? RAH!!!!! this is killing me. this is worse than any sickness that one can get. RAH!!!

Confused

I'm really confused now. Maybe like what my encik would say also, concuss and concaved. there is not much like but i just like the thing. hahas. but seriously, i'm quite confused now. i really dun know what to think or how to feel... CONFUSED!!!!!

i'm not going to say what made me confused. but i really am. suggestion anyone???...

我以为

你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他,有那么好.
你说会懂我的失落,
不是靠宽容,就能够解脱.
我以为我出现的时候刚好,
你和他,就说要分开.
我以为你,已对他不再期待,
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
全心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
我以为终究你会慢慢明白,
他的心已不在你身上,
我的关心,你依然无动于衷,
我的以为只是我以为.
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
专心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
他让你红了眼眶,你却还笑着原谅,
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁.
我以为我够坚强,却一天天的失望,
少给我一点希望,希望就不是奢望.
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
专心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
他让你红了眼眶,你却还笑着原谅,
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁.
我以为我够坚强,却输的那么绝望,
少给我一点希望,希望就不是奢望.

爱？

有些人的人生，是直達車
有些人卻是慢車，中間總要經過許多站，經歷許多人…

有人總是下錯站，坐過頭，不是錯失了窗外風景，就是錯過了身旁的人
沒有人知道，能陪自己坐到終點站的人，究竟會是誰….
相愛的人，真的就能一路到達人生的終點站嗎？

Revive :D

Okay, i am going to update my blog and get a new skin. hahas. Surprised? But i wont be updating tt often bah. But still, u can always check :D

Long time no post

It has been quite long since i last posted. A lot of things had happened and some of which are definitely not happy ones. I don't know how to look at all these problems already. I think i'm just running away from them but i don't think that makes any difference even if i do care about it.

Anyway, council term is coming to an end. I don't know what i will feel or what i'm feeling now. It's just so weird to not be working closely with them again.

Anyway, i know it's time to start mugging. But i just dun seem to be able to settle myself down to study. Why? Can someone help me?

RAH!!!

~JuSt M3~

Emo

Hmm, i think many of you want to know the reason. I think. Maybe none of you are interested at all. Nvm, i wanna rant anyway, so just fuck off if you're not interested at all. I'm not forcing you to read anyway.

1) I am trying my best to balance my work and relationship and there you go again. I see you with 'him' again. It is during election day itself. Don't you have duty too? Even if you don't, isn't it suppose to be your duty to try to get the class to listen and vote intelligently? And there you go again, doing god knows what. I was simply trying to have a good lunch with her and there goes a call and there goes the perfect lunch. How do you think i feel when i walk past the class and see them mugging and see you with 'him'? Maybe it's just me again, but this time, i really don't care who's at fault. You're outta my concern already. I don't care what you do anymore. I'm trying to accept. But here i am, trying to fucking balance everything. Just fuck off.

2) I feel extremely terrible when boss went out along to get the notebook for me. I was back in school at 5+. Even bang went to get the things with him in the end. I feel super bad.

3) Fucking academics. Why is it that everything seems so much harder now? Why the fuck are the lecturers so boring? It is almost every lessons that i fall asleep. I even have a hard time to stay awake during tutorial. Fuck this shit.

4) Even teachers have problem with me now. That is at least what i think.

5) just many other minor stuffs.

Darling, i'm sorry that i can't spend more time with you. I promise i will find the time right after the camp. Sorry. I'll have time de. I'm not that busy.

~EmO M3~

Home

What the bloody hell is that? I don't know why but the hatred to go home is like worse off now. Maybe boarding is really a good idea. Why do we always have to fight? And why cant you keep the house like it is a house. A simple big bag of stuffs can also be gone. Where the hell did it go? I'm damn bloody pissed!