Emo

Hmm, i think many of you want to know the reason. I think. Maybe none of you are interested at all. Nvm, i wanna rant anyway, so just fuck off if you're not interested at all. I'm not forcing you to read anyway.

1) I am trying my best to balance my work and relationship and there you go again. I see you with 'him' again. It is during election day itself. Don't you have duty too? Even if you don't, isn't it suppose to be your duty to try to get the class to listen and vote intelligently? And there you go again, doing god knows what. I was simply trying to have a good lunch with her and there goes a call and there goes the perfect lunch. How do you think i feel when i walk past the class and see them mugging and see you with 'him'? Maybe it's just me again, but this time, i really don't care who's at fault. You're outta my concern already. I don't care what you do anymore. I'm trying to accept. But here i am, trying to fucking balance everything. Just fuck off.

2) I feel extremely terrible when boss went out along to get the notebook for me. I was back in school at 5+. Even bang went to get the things with him in the end. I feel super bad.

3) Fucking academics. Why is it that everything seems so much harder now? Why the fuck are the lecturers so boring? It is almost every lessons that i fall asleep. I even have a hard time to stay awake during tutorial. Fuck this shit.

4) Even teachers have problem with me now. That is at least what i think.

5) just many other minor stuffs.

Darling, i'm sorry that i can't spend more time with you. I promise i will find the time right after the camp. Sorry. I'll have time de. I'm not that busy.

~EmO M3~

Home

What the bloody hell is that? I don't know why but the hatred to go home is like worse off now. Maybe boarding is really a good idea. Why do we always have to fight? And why cant you keep the house like it is a house. A simple big bag of stuffs can also be gone. Where the hell did it go? I'm damn bloody pissed!

Boarding

Hmm. I'm staying in NJ boarding school now until may. I may not really be updating or be online as much. Sorry

~JuSt M3~

Lost

Council

A word that was placed before everything. Why is it so blur now?
What is the purpose of me in it now?
I don't know anymore.
Friends? Leadership? The experience?

I don't know how to see it now. Is it me that loses the focus? Or you?

I don't know why but that word seem like a stranger to me now. It doesn't give me the passion or love that i used to have.

But then again. What am i without council?

~EmO M3~

IMU

~JuSt M3~

Sian

I'm going to feel sian for this week. SIAN!!!

~LoN3Ly M3~

Today's feeling

There's something fishy about today's Pisces New Moon and it has your name all over it. Individualism isn't one of your strong points, for you'd rather swim with a school than have to venture off on your own. Nevertheless, you could still be feeling a little stand-offish now, making forward movement harder. Instead of waiting to see how everyone else responds, just express what you are feeling, even if you then go off to spend some time by yourself.

Okay, today i felt so left out of the class. I don't know why. I just felt left out. And seriously, please stop all the actions in class. Yes, the class know by now but it's still quite disturbing. It's not like there's no one in the class. Maybe you don't feel it, but it's quite gross to other people.

I don't know how to express this also, but it's just weird and f up.

~v3XeD M3~

Oops

Sorry for not updating for so long. Had been busy. Hmm. Very busy actually.

Anyway, i still got lots of work to catch up. Sorry. Update next time.

~BuSy M3~